I hope you know that, for your sake and mine, I really try to stick to topics that are either useful to you, or something I need help and reassurance on. This is by nature a very personal blog, so I am constantly second guessing whether I've been guilty of over-sharing or not. I am sure that at times I have been.
I keep a personal journal for the things I need to write down either to remember, or to sort through that are more private and not really appropriate for worldwide viewing. But sometimes after recording something there, I feel quite strongly that I should also share it here.
Such is the case with my journal entry from last night. All morning I've felt this pressing prompting to share it here. So, hopefully, this is useful to at least one of you readers.
"I have felt empowered by the grace of God so much this week.
Every day has had challenges--many of them testing my mental and emotional resiliency. I've had a lot of anxiety. I've gotten down and I've gotten angry and frustrated. I've wanted to turn to the coping skills that are easy and familiar, but harmful in the long run.
But instead, I've read my scriptures and the *Ensign. I've listened to *Conference talks as I make dinner or clean the house. I've asked for help (so hard!), I've prayed for help to stay patient with the kids and HH. I've prayed for help in general. And I've tried to take care of myself by exercising (might've overdone it a bit when the anxiety was really bad) and eating well.
And I've been blessed one hundred fold. I've been able to stay patient, to return to a positive and cheerful mood, and even to be able to honestly say to HH that not one part of me doesn't want him to go on this "guy's hiking trip" he's leaving for. I'll miss him and I'm a little worried about being on my own, but he needs this break in so many ways.
And the Lord keeps reminding me that I have enough--because He has given me all that I need."
That's it. Short and sweet because I was in a hurry to get to bed. :) But, I've had some amazing experiences this week and have been able to recognize some real personal growth that has been so gratifying and reassuring. And I know that these steps I've taken are directly related to this added strength I've felt.
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