Soooooo... the past couple of weeks have been... interesting. Ups and downs, with the downs spiraling into a serious flare up with my exercise addiction, accompanied by paranoia that none of my friends actually like me.
It was sad. But, I tried to keep on keepin' on. This happened.
I think she's so beautiful. Even with a messy face.
Anyway, so I forced myself to hang out with my friends. Twice. And was quickly reassured by just being with them that I was, in fact, JUST being a paranoid
And then I took off a couple days from exercise. Completely. And nothing bad happened. And I didn't feel guilty about it. Possibly because I was ridiculously sore from all I did the two days before I took those two days off. But still, this is progress.
And I'm doing well. Yesterday was rough, but I fought it all along the way. I did a really good job staying above water for a lot of it and I'm proud of myself for that. And the times that I gave into the negative, I picked myself up, dusted myself off, and got back on the horse.
How's that for all kind of mixed metaphors?
It's my blog. I can mix all the metaphors I want.
Anyway, last night a family friend came to stay overnight with his new (to me) wife. Love them. We had so much fun talking. Stayed up too late. And then they were so sweet and made my kids' morning just wonderful before getting back on the road to continue their journey.
And today was a good good day. I even got to talk to my mom and my dad tonight.
I'm going to be okay, people. And I'm not just talking about today. Or tomorrow. Or this week. Something has happened. It's like all of the lessons I've been learning have finally begun to be assimilated and are becoming a more natural part of my thought patterns. Not that life will be perfect from here on out. But, things are starting to get easier.
At least for now. Here's hoping that there really is something permanent happening here. :)