Hey. So, remember how I was all set to be all open and honest and trusting and all of that good stuff? Well, turns out I was. But, only as long as it was relatively easy. Shortly after more last post, things got really bad and I went back to my natural instinct to just shut everyone out and keep everything to myself as much as possible. So, I did.
Only, this time I knew (even though I tried to fight it) that I was supposed to be open, not closed. But, I didn't know how. And I didn't want to.
And it was yucky and scary at times.
Easter was really nice, thankfully.
It's been a whole lot of ups and downs. And sometimes I wanted to reach out for help, but then I didn't. For a lot of different reasons. I kept thinking about posting, but it was kind of overwhelming. My mind has been in overdrive and there is way too much to catch up on.
This weekend was General Conference. It was really really nice. I especially appreciated the message from President Uchtdorf, about God's light illuminating the way out of darkness. You can read a summary of it here. And the message from Elder Holland about exercising my faith, no matter how small it seems, based on one of my favorite scriptural accounts in St. Mark 9: 14-24.
And so, I'm trying.