Thursday, September 23, 2010

Day 236: This Isn't A "Fairness World"

If I had a penny for every time my dad responded with that phrase when anyone of us would complain about something "not being fair"...

And I know he's right.  And I know that really, that's the way this life has to be for a myriad of reasons.  But sometimes, I still wish some things were fair.  Like Depression.

Take today, for example.  I totally should have won today.  Nothing really terrible happened, the kids were well-behaved (minus Sweet P peeing on the sidewalk on the way home--seriously?!), my favorite yoga instructor finally returned, I wasn't mad at anyone, and things just went relatively well all day.

But sometimes, Depression wins anyway.

And it did today.  I know that for all intents and purposes, my life totally rocks.  And I mean that.  It really does.  I have an unbelievably blessed life, for whatever reason.  Nothing was really wrong today.  Except for the huge, gaping hole inside that is full to the brim with sadness.  I have every reason in the world to be happy.  But today, I'm not.

The good thing is, I've been around this block enough times to know that this will end and I will be happy again.  Maybe even tomorrow.

But for now, I'm going to have to claim eating a homemade cookie for the first time in over three months as my Joyful Moment.  Not because Baby B outgrew his MSPI, but because I found a dairy/soy free recipe.  Nowhere near my chocolate chip cookie recipe tastiness--but let's be honest, those could spank any cookie any day--but still quite delicious.  And a homemade cookie is always a treat.

Wishing you all homemade yumminess to go with your Joyful Moments!

1 comment:

Linda said...

Not my best day either, we should have talked...

My joy was reading Jacob 7:8 and having the words, "...the Lord poured in his Spirit into my soul..." teach me something new.