I know that is what I have so abundantly.
That makes days like this all the more painful. I wish I could always bask in the beauty of this amazing life I've been given. I know that it truly is amazing--and a gift. But, some days I just can't shake the dark clouds.
I'm not really sure what is going on. I know I'm sleep deprived, but it still seems worse right now than it should be. It's frustrating because I was feeling so great and optimistic a couple short weeks ago. But, today has been really rough.
I ended up locking myself and the baby in my room for the last two hours before HH came home. I just felt like such a downer and didn't want to expose my kids to that. HH came home and tried to help as best as he could, but some days I feel broken beyond repair. Snuggling up with him to watch half if a movie was the closest I came to a Joyful Moment today.