Inspired by last week, I tried again to make today a truly enjoyable Sunday.
Nothing went as smoothly as last week, but by sheer willpower, I was able to enjoy it anyway. A good thing to know and remember in the future.
Darling A's sleep issues are starting to get to me. I'm so tired! She hardly naps either, so HH gave me a bit of break during the middle of the day and kept her home while I went out for Visiting Teaching. I really appreciated that.
I've got to get better rested though.
As my mood has improved over the past few weeks, I've notice a big change in my interactions with my children. I'm more laid back and lighthearted and they respond to that immediately. We've been smiling and laughing together a lot more and I just feel closer to them. Sweet P and Little M especially are a lot fun, as we've had some really great, meaningful conversations. But, today I was feeling more prone to tension and kind of short with them.
I don't know if they were consciously aware of the difference, but I sure felt it. It's not like I was in a bad mood. I think it's just the way I've gotten into the habit of being, so when I'm tired, it comes more quickly.
But, I know things will continue to improve with time and that I need to be patient with myself. And every moment is a chance to start over and do better.